A cryptic blog post to mark a moment
Posted by shannonclark on May 7, 2009
A quick probably cryptic blog post for my own future reference.
Last night I learned something momentus yet also private. Perhaps something that for some reason I wasn’t yet going to be told.
For now I’m going to not say more until I’m told more officially.
But it is eating me up inside. I want to shout about – in a happy, thrilled way. But not being told about it directly is bothering me.
Yesterday heck the whole past month but especially yesterday was a stark reminder of just how much I truly hate being single. I miss having someone else to share my life with, someone to wake up with to share truly private news with.
Someone to know will be there when I may need a door held open or help as I do this week in getting a computer back from being repaired.
Someone to go see a film with and to then talk about it afterwards instead as I do too often walking home alone and sharing my thoughts only in 140 char tweets.
I have been single most of my life in a month I turn 35. Of all that time I’ve only been dating someone for less than 4 years. Total.
If I met someone tomorrow and married them it won’t be until I’m over 60, assuming we stayed together, for me to have spent even half of my life in a relationship.
And frankly I’m not overly optimistic certainly my past doesn’t give me much room for optimism that I’ll have a date anytime this summer let alone a girlfriend or get married.
So on a day when I should be happy I find myself a bit morose.
Cryptic I know.